Our story began, I was buried beneath a starless sky,
I was dimmer than a midnight wind,
But you found their twinkle in my eyes.

You know those tears that tingle your nose…

I just wanna write. I’ve been so busy. I can’t take it anymore. I have so much to say. Some of it is so irrelevant to anything important…But a lot needs to burst out.

This won’t possibly make any sense. So here goes.

One tree flippin Hill what the heck?? If you kill another person I will kill that tree. With a butter knife THAT’S RIGHT and on the subject of shows SHONDA RHYMES YOU KNOW WHO YOU KILLED AND YOU KNOW WHAT LOVE DIED BECAUSE OF IT. Why couldn’t it live??? why did she take so long to speak her mind? Why do I always opt for singing my mind rather than speaking it? Why do I always take so dang long just to speak period..

I’ve got to get better at getting back to people. I’ve been busy at least.. so busy I’ve hardly had a moment to think about anything and the times I have I’ve felt like I’m going to explode but then I go back to being busy and force it back in and this has been a cycle since coming here…Oh and I dropped my phone in a river.

I’m happy to be here with friends but I actually am starting to have friends that aren’t here who I miss and then there are those almost friends who I miss but I’m not sure miss me a bit and that’s all just confusing and I want to go back but then I want to stay here and it’s a weird feeling I didn’t have the last time I came…

And I’m just rambling about whatever is coming to me at this moment like that stupid but really actually great song that played in the car today that managed to stop my heart when I heard it and made me mad that that happens still and speaking of songs I’ve been on some sort of a writing spree lately they just keep poppin out like babies from the octomom and I don’t know what to do with them or what the heck I am supposed to do next or how anything is even gonna work out.

This has been the most grammatically incorrect and ridiculous post I have ever posted.

We haven’t talked in ages. I feel like I have so much to say but haven’t found the right moment to unleash it onto your pages. It’s all been building in me a bit more every day. Soon it’s gonna tower over everything else and pour out from the roof. But for now…I bid you goodnight.

“We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us! But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.”
1 Corinthians 13:12-13 MSG

There is so much I wanted to write here tonight.. But I wrote a song instead.
I feel like I have so much to say.
I know I do. And I know God’s gonna give me a way to let me share it.
I don’t doubt that for a minute.
But for now, good night!
He’s dreaming for me while I dream.

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You pepper coated, tile flavored, dirt lickin, paper bag.
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“Just to occupy one minute of your day,
Just to sleep underneath your bed,
Just to stay in the corner of your heart.”